All things considered

Blog entries are a fickle thing. I never seem to be satisfied with them...or, as of late, finish them. However, this weighs on mind and therefore must be changed. So, in order to get the proverbial juices going, let me describe a fictional scene that I can see happening some day in the future (neither distant nor near, just the future; I dare not be specific). Rather, I'll tell a story.


The curtains, which are often the most underrated and overlooked component of any man's room, were what woke him up that Saturday morning, fluttering contently in the cool breeze of the morning. With that certain sense of disbelief that all people having upon just waking up, Jacob realized that he was indeed awake before sunrise on a Saturday (and not simply in the sense that he had not yet gone to sleep, as was often the case). It was certainly somewhat of a surprise to him, but all the same, he felt grand. Repositioning himself so as to face the window, as well as the rustling curtains, he took a deep breath of the air coming in off of the lake. Wonderful indeed, Jacob thought to himself, a smell of life and of a new beginning. He laughed at his humble attempt at prose, delivered to himself so early in the morning. Terribly unimpressive as usual, he chuckled. As the curtains settled with a lull in the breeze, Jacob pulled off the covers, pulled on his slippers, and turned off his alarm (set to 11:30, to allow him two hours to prepare for his lunch out with dear old friends, who just so happened to be in town for the weekend). Instead of heading to the bathroom though, as habit would dictate, he grabbed his robe and left the house to see the sunrise.

As he opened the front door of his house, now clutching a grapefruit juice, Jacob was once again struck by how strange it was that he was awake so early; the sky in the east was only just beginning to turn grey, and the stars were still visible in the sky. However, stranger things had happened, so he wasn't about to waste another moment thinking about this particular oddity. The breeze was back again, but it was late May and it had lost its bitter touch. Still, Jacob pulled his robe tighter around him and took a sip of his juice. With the sour taste of the juice on his tongue the morning air assumed a more earthy smell and brought to mind the days he had spent hiking in the mountains after graduation. Those times were golden.

The sky began to glow in the east as dawn approached. Jacob leaned on the side of his house and watched it arrive. With the first golden rays of the new day illuminating the forest he smiled for a moment in response to the moment. The sunlight touched the edge of the lake and the water seemed to assume a much more friendly attitude. However, this was lost on Jacob, as he was suddenly elsewhere. He had began to recall a conversation he had had long ago, in his youth with a lady fair, about seeing the sunrise over a lake from a house in the woods. What a grand dream that had been! But then it dawned on Jacob that in the three years he had been living by the lake, he had seen the sunrise only one other time - the morning after he had moved into the house - and that had been while he was half asleep, and from a camp chair facing the remains of a great bonfire. Rather sad perhaps, that the paramount reason he had began dreaming about this house had been ignored for so long. But that's what working can do to you.

So, as he walked back inside his house Jacob decided to try to see the sunrise more often, and to reflect more upon days past and what he had wanted to do. Good policy, he thought, now making coffee. I'll have to tell my friends about it when I see them.



Well, that's that. I'll try to do something more philosophical and more personal soon. But, for those who want to know, I've just past through (or, I rather hope I have) a very stressful time. There was no definite beginning or ending and nothing much to talk about with regards to it. Again I've learned about myself. School is difficult but I am happy (that's not what I learned!). Well, I hope to see you all soon; I appreciate your thoughts and your kind words. You all have my best wishes.