Sensations

I really can't do too much with the entry tonight as I am dead tired. However, I felt compelled to mention a facet of my existence that I find interesting. I frequently find myself in a state of disbelief.

This is not to say that I am shocked at particularly improbable or extraordinary things, I just often find myself feeling something like "Wow. How can that be?" Strange, eh? I'll give you a few examples. Last night while I was running along the bike path, I was struck by the rhythm of my breathing, the pain in my legs and chest, the smell of the river and the trees, and the feeling of the wind on my face...and my mind just sort of hit a wall and was like..."Sweet...how amazing is this?" It was totally unexpected and involuntary, which is splendid. Soon afterward my cellphone rang (also surprising). I couldn't pick it up for several reasons. First, it would interrupt my run and I was almost to the 1.5 mile mark so I could not afford that. Second, I was really out of breath and probably could not talk. Finally, I knew by some intuition that it was Jen calling and I could call her back in a moment. But I digress. Another example is when I'm hanging around my friends. All of a sudden I'll just phase out of the picture and think about how great it is to be around them and to have had a past with them...and I just smile on the inside. Part of me can't believe I'm so lucky so I have to analyze it again. The final example is kinda embarrassing...but I'll tell you anyway. I sometimes find myself realizing, never immediately, that someone is very beautiful and I will literally say to myself (and I have said this in my head) "How can someone really be that beautiful!" It's not like I'm saying it to indicate how grand they look...but that I actually can't believe they are so...radiant. I'm just struck by it and it takes me a minute to realize I've wandered. I do not have lewd thoughts after that, for your information, I usually just try to blend back into where I left off. It is mentally amusing for me to look back on these moments. Hmm, perhaps many people have these moments.

Have a nice night, folks. Sorry if this was boring.